18. Drunk and Red Hot with Joy
Popped out for two pints. Failed.
Only meant to have a couple.
Popped into the pub near the station. Two pints. Three tops. To take the edge off the week.
Hoped it would help me sleep.
Was about to go home when I saw the office crowd at All-Bar-One.
They seemed quiet, so I cracked a few jokes. Was feeling tipsy. More relaxed. More human.
Told them my wrong Simon story. Someone nearly choked on a crisp.
At one point, I mimed eating a stapler. Everyone laughed. I howled. Bent double, face red hot with joy.
People were nudging each other. Pointing at me, saying I’m not who they thought I was.
They loved it. For a little while, I was part of it. And I think I loved it too.
The pub had one of those loos with mirrored walls. Felt like I was surrounded. Nearly got into an argument with myself!
Slipped a little. Nothing dramatic. Bruised elbow. Wet trousers.
Left after that. Don’t think I said goodbye.
Woke up to a broken phone and sick on the floor.